Aaahhhh. feels great after cleaning up my room. (Y)
Had the urge to clean up my room since i felt quite bored and had nothing to do.
well, in fact theres FUCKING ALOT of things to do. hahahha


Anyway, while cleaning up, i found alot of old stuff and they were quite interesting.
Primary school pictures, 3-4 years back then genting pictures, notes, drawings, diary.
Couldnt help it but to read my old diary.
Oh well, i guess i threw some stuff away. Some old memories.
And some of it, i just couldnt throw them away.
Hahaha Andy, those days are history. Time to move on.

When reading the diary, its like, flashbacks. Certain pages, certain lines, certain stuff just triggers some memory in my brain. its like, everythings playing in a fast forward rewind mode. cool huh.
And i cant help but to think.
Was i smarter back then?
Did i have more inspiration back then?
What the FUCK was i thinking back then.
Did i waste my time?
Do i like what i did in the past?
Do i prefer now, or do i prefer the past.

Looking at the rhymes i did,
looking at the things i wrote,
looking at the stuff i drew,
looking at all the things that i was proud of,

I guess they were all the past.
History.

Move on Andy, you're a few years older already.
Things can not be the same as before.
You dont have the luxury of time to do the things you did when you were young.
You dont have the time to sit down and invite inspiration and start doodling and writing rhymes.
You dont have the freedom to do whatever you want.

You've got dance.
You chose to join the competition. So stop complaining and start committing.
You've got your baby.
That beautiful lady.
You've got school.
You've got business to do buddy.
Remember what you said to yourself.
Remember what you want for yourself. your future.
If you don't start now, when will you?
If you don't make it big, who would?

Make it or Break it.

Hmmmmmmmmmm. I think i should start updating my blog frequently.
Although no one seems to read this piece of art work anymore. Hahahhahah.
I seriously do not know what to write about now.
How bout this.
Baby and i went to catch out first movie together!
HAhhahha, i know i know.
SHE DONT LIKE TO WATCH MOVIE LEH. WHAT TO DO. =x
Anyway, we watched New Moon and i kinda like it. <3
I dont like Bellaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Okay okay, enough with the movie thing.

Read baby's blog and it kinda struck me ;O
" What is love? "
" What is happiness? "
Well, to me. Love is a feeling. A feeling whereby, you just wanna know how the other person is feeling.
A feeling where,
even if the person is being fucked up at times, you'd tahan.
you'd walk an extra mile just to see that person.
that person's imperfections make them almost perfect for you.
you'd get jealous just cause the person is talking to another person and not you =x okay fine this is just me.
just a lil support from that person makes you do your best.
that person is able to piss you off TO THE MAX and yet make you feel so lovey dovey.
no matter what situation you're in, you just wanna dote on him/her.
you'd get reminded of him/her by lil lil things.
you'd get so worked up when him/her is being stubborn.
you'd torture those who lay a finger on him/her.
you'd get so bloody happy just by the little things that he/she does.

So, whats happiness?
Different people has different POV about happiness.
Anyway heres mine.
Happiness doesnt mean theres no trouble. Even when theres trouble, there can be happiness.
By solving it, it makes me kinda happy too.
Being able to do what i wanna do. Freedom.
To have an aim, a goal.
To have something different to do everyday, something different to feel.
To have a passion, and to be able to do that passion.
But, being able to get what i wanna get seems too boring.
Yes, we'd be happy if we're able to get what we wanna get.
But what if we work hard to get what we wanna get? Doesnt it makes us feel happier? A sense of satisfactory
Being rich.
Well, some people might say no. Cuz, money doesnt bring happiness.
But hey, look at the world we're in now. No money, no talk.
Financial Freedom.
Being able to support your wife and family, without you working 24/7
Now thats, happiness. Thats freedom.
Well of course we need to work hard for that.
Many will not have a chance to attain that.
Some will.

Hi blog. Its been some time since i used you.

Anyway, lifes been gooooood. Although there were ups and downs, it was still good.
Cuz im always forgiven by this particular person whenever i do stupid things.
And yes, i've learnt quite alot of things.
Maybe i'm a lil fucked up. just a lil. i think. Lol.

7months seems fucking fast. It feels like yesterday that i just went out with you and we went to far east to get my perfume.
Wow.
Anyway, school's being the same.
Im still showing up late for classes.
Im still skipping classes. -.-
Need to change this habit. Sigh.
Oh, as for dance, im back in it again hehehehehhe.
Well, at least i think i am.
Been lost for 8months and now, feels good somehow.
Feels bad at times too.
But anyway fuck it.

Okay i got nothing much to write about for now as its 3:56am and im kinda tired and i need to sleep cuz i feel physically tired and theres no school tmr cuz its fucking hari raya or at least i think it is so ya im going to have a good sleep bye bye guys goodnight

Sometimes i try to make it work,

Andy.
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